October 11, 2010

Serendipity.

During the last few weeks my thoughts have been very selfishly directed onto my own being. On my dreams, my desires and my wishes, while looking for things that make me happy. Trying to find that lost place of comfort and tranquility that I seemed to have misplaced for a period of time. I have simply been going through a lot of soul searching in order to find back to me. This has been very much reflected in my writing, as some of you have noticed and even pointed out in your comments.

The focus directed towards my own feelings and emotions has brought me into a state of heightened sensitivity, for a lack of better expression. I feel constantly, thus my empathy for my surroundings has intensified in the most unusual way.

I seem to have gained some sort of premonition for somewhat mundane, however quiet amusing serendipitous occurrences. This newfound ability is reflected in subtle signs, which presents themselves to me daily. I pick up the phone just when a text messages arrives or when someone is calling me, usually the person who I was thinking about minutes prior. I start humming a tune in my mind, which has entered it out of nowhere, only to hear it start playing on the radio station a few minutes later. Staying with music, it seems that suddenly all the lyrics I hear are describing my own problems or even solving the dilemma that I am finding myself in, by offering the solution in the words of the chorus. Over and over again.

While I drive, I see adds lining the roads, displayed on the sides of taxis and busses, that speak to me in an unusual way. They seem to convey hidden messages, often reflecting the thoughts or even answering question that I was contemplating moments before.

And then there are numbers, very much like the date of today or even yesterday, which create a harmonious sequence; 10-10-10, 10-11-10...
When I glance upon the digital display of watches, either in my home, at work, on my phone or computer, they all seem to state combination such as; 14:14, 22:33, 11:11, 00:00 or even 12:34, over and over again, several times a day, making me with a smile recollect that intriguing post about this observation, written by my friend Hilary last year.

Logically I know I have not become psychic in a matter of weeks, but I enjoy my novel sensitivity to my surroundings, and in its turn, to my own existence.  Perhaps it has always been there, somewhat dormant, surfacing only now due to my current state of mind.

Whether it is spiritual, divine or simply a natural (intellectual) perception that has been tuned into something already predisposed for me to sense - I do not know. And I really do not care. My recent experiences only reinforce my perpetual beliefs in the simple fact that if we only look, answers, solutions and help, or the offer of comfort can be found everywhere.

No matter how alone we might feel, I do not think we ever are.

37 comments:

Susan Deborah said...

Dear Zuzana:

Being intuitive and aware are wonderful traits which I have observed for a long time in you through your posts. And this post has reinforced that. I am glad that you are not taking things lightly and are observing everything keenly and closely. I guess the microscopic experiments aid in that! And having traversed through the paths of life, we know what to expect and what to look for. And sometimes looking within us helps tap the different layers which were hitherto dormant or we have not seen before. So, I think that this act cannot be termed as 'selfish' as you have humbly referred but an intensified awareness of our being and self, which one needs to do on a regular basis.

This post has made me look at usual things in a different light. Thanks, dear Zuzana.

Much love and joy for this week and always,
Susan

Elizabeth said...

Hej Zuzana,

Me again but now after I read your very interesting post. Just to tell you about this link: www.ofscarabs.blogspot.com and this link: www.67notout.com. You will have some fascinating hours ahead if you start reading.

Have fun as always.

Elizabeth

Elisabeth said...

I put it down to a 'precognitive' sense of things, the sort of heightened sensitivity you describe, Zuzana.

Enjoy it while it lasts, if enjoy is the right word.

I also think these states of mind are also closely associated with childhood experience, and a wonderful opportunity for writing.

SandyCarlson said...

You describe the effect of meditation for me. The focus on self paradoxically results in a heightened sensitivity to the world around us. We give, we take, we give again.

A beautiful post, friend.

Brian Miller said...

nuce Zuzana...i wonder when our emotions are ar the rawest, if that what brings us to this point...because i agree and hav felt similar...since number seem to be your thing...can you think lotto number for next week...smiles.

Hilary said...

Well you certainly know how I feel about it all.. precisely as you do. It makes me smile that you remembered my post. Thanks for the linkage, my dear friend.

And keep on noticing.

GrandmaK said...

You sensitivity to thinks around you has always been one of the reasons I return. You give such wonderful perspective to life. This post is certainly no different. Thank you to you my serendipitous friend!!!! Have a wonderful day! Cathy

Ash said...

Beautiful post, Zuzana! I just LOVE your blog.

Keith said...

Wow. What a beautiful post. Your posts are always well done. Full of insights. I hope this finds you doing well. Take care.

Rebecca said...

You know, you certainly have shown hints of this in your previous posts and notes. I tend to believe that the signs are always there but we don't always recognize them. It seems we are more in tune and sensitive at certain times in our lives. Perhaps it has something to do with energy and vibrational frequency...

Bachelor said...

Zuzana,
You remind me of Simon and Garfunkel's "Sound of Silence"...
Thanks for sharing this awareness of being. And I agree with you; we are never alone! :) The Bach

Michael Manning said...

When I wrote my piece in Marshall Terrill's Tribute book on Steve McQueen I began with, "The question is an existential one". I am one who has been facinated this past year with comparing the life line of events in my life with where certain friends were along their journey in the same time period. I wouldn't call your qwest selfish, Zuzana. Rather, it is refreshingly candid and you are very generous in sharing with us moments we should all ponder as we seek to renew our lives! xo! ;)

Keera Ann Fox said...

Welcome to my world. :-) What you write reminds me of Carl Jung's synchronicity: Positive (helpful) coincidences.

Snowbrush said...

We learn by recognizing patterns, and where there are no patterns, we--oftentimes--invent them as a way to feel secure. Or so it seems to me.

I hope the shortening days are being good to you.

Lulda Casadaga said...

Zuzana: Great post! I had a serendipity moment this weekend camping. Remember we are all psychic...just at different levels.
I hope you find all the answers you seek! :) Enjoy a none stressfull week!!

tony said...

It Can Be Very Hard To (for want of a better word) "Tune-In " to ones surroundings.So Many Distractions! So Many Influences Seem To Break-Up The Flow.But, Yes, I Think If The Balance Is Found, We Trust Our Own Reactions So Much More.
Stay With The Rythme Zuzana!

tony said...

It Can Be Very Hard To (for want of a better word) "Tune-In " to ones surroundings.So Many Distractions! So Many Influences Seem To Break-Up The Flow.But, Yes, I Think If The Balance Is Found, We Trust Our Own Reactions So Much More.
Stay With The Rythme Zuzana!

Roger Gauthier said...

Hello Zuzana! I'm so happy to read you... You write very well and it is always a pleasure.

This being said.... I would like very much to agree with you. Oh so very much at times! You realise of course that your post is above the philosophical level and touches the intangible. You may be right... I hope you are. And I am convinced that you are for yourself, which is the main point. I would not dare challenge you on that! :-)

I'm trying to see if it applies to me and I am far from sure of it. After all, I'm a pretty dumb guy.

Have fun!

Donna said...

Beautiful post, Zuzana, so beautifully written. I often have serendipity moments and for some reason always seeing the clock reading 11:11.

Hugs,
Donna

Jerry said...

I have a very basic thought about this sensitivity...this intuition. You care, and by doing so all of life means more.

We need more like you.

steviewren said...

If the thought of a friend returns to my mind frequently over the space of a day or two, I can be almost positive that I will receive a phone call or run in that same friend very shortly. It's always been that way. Our minds just seem to get on the same wave-length until we talk. It's funny how people can do that...but it's nice too, knowing someone else has been thinking of you.

Doreen said...

living in mindfulness. which actually takes effort to me. you have to keep awareness up. a great place to be!! also what I call deja vu.

sprinkles said...

I've always thought it would be kind of cool to be psychic. Or maybe not, depending on what you'd see.

I read a post on another blog awhile back about someone experiencing similar things with the clocks and the time. Don't remember where I read it though.

I hope you find "you" very soon.

I thought I'd be feeling more like that right now because tomorrow is my birthday and last year's b-day wasn't very happy. I tried to sky-dive the weekend before and couldn't because of the weather. Then on my birthday, I wasn't feeling well and had to spend the day attending a long drawn-out, dull, mandatory meeting for work. And then the next day I got fired. It's been almost a year since I lost my job and I'm not any closer to finding work. But today was a happy day as I got some wonderful news so maybe it'll all hit me tomorrow.

LadyCat said...

I think some people are more sensitive to these things than others because they open themselves up to the possibilities of the universe. I definetly have experiences with number patterns and have read some about them. Ever since my Mother passed away I see the time 7:11 on the clock at special moments or when I need advice. She passed away 8 years ago and just last month I remembered that I weighed 7 lbs 11 oz when I was born. Maybe that's the connection : ) At least it's nice to think we have these special connections to something beyond ourselves.

adrielleroyale said...

I can so relate - especially to the first paragraph lately, trying to find myself somehow - trying to find the meaning of it all. I want to keep the lessons I've learned, but am drawn to the comfort of what was and trying to figure out if I am meant to have it again. Great and very honest post. :)

ladyfi said...

What would life be without those serendipitous moments?

Holly said...

How insightful!! I truly enjoyed this post. Maybe you HAVE become a psychic in a matter of weeks. :):) I think with how self aware you are and how in tune you are with nature that it only makes sense you should be so intuitive.

Speaking of nature,...thank you for sharing so many gorgous pictures of the changing season. I don't get any of that amazing color here so I am living vicariously through you!! :)

xoxox -Holly

Velvet Over Steel said...

Yes, very insightful and heartfelt post! I actually understand so much of what you are saying! You are not selfish though.. at all!!

You helped me understand something very deep inside of me today!! Thank you for sharing this and your inner world with us!

Blessings & Big Hug,
Coreen

Lynne said...

I think it's all about learning to listen to our inner voice. I believe in it very strongly.
You seem to be getting comfort from your inner voice just now. Long may it continue.

Mimi said...

Zuzana, this is beautiful, it's calming just to read it.
Serendipity... a lovely word to get your tongue round. A friend of mine composed a beautiful piece called "Serendipity" - if I can get my head round the techie side, I'll try to post a little bit. At the weekend.

Betsy said...

My sister sees 11:11 every where she looks...very interesting!

Just_because_today said...

while going through a very difficult health issue, I became closer to my faith. I saw signs all over and I held on to them. I asked a priest friend of mine what he thought of that, he said "there are signs all the time, but we are not always listening". That said, I also believe in synchronicities and serendipity especially after I experienced it with a friend which I wrote about.http://becauseitisi.blogspot.com/2010_07_02_archive.html

Cloudia said...

I relate to your words!

You are on a good path, I'm certain :)




Warm Aloha from Waikiki

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sandra mucciardi said...

Beautiful Zuzana... You always put a smile on my face... always so inspiring and uplifting :)

Zuzana said...

Susan, Elizabeth, Elisabeth, Sandy, Brian, Hilary, Cathy, Ash, Keith, Rebecca, The Bach, Michael, Keera, Snowbrush, Lulda, tony, Roger, Donna, jerry, Stevie, Doreen, sprinkles, LadyCat, adrielle, ladyfi, Holly, Coreen, Lynne, Mimi, Betsy, Myriam, Cloudia (welcome), Grandma and Sandra, thank you all for stopping by and for sharing with me your own opinions about the subtle signs in our surroundings, that can speak to us in one way or another.

The idea of a connection we form with everything in this world and our sensitivity to it has always been an intriguing subject to me.

Thank you so much for your constant visits and kind words that at all times warm my heart,

Xoxo
Zuzana

Hope Despite Depression said...

Thank you so much for sharing this link with me! I loved reading it!

I do believe we all have "psychic" abilities to some degree - it's just a matter of whether we choose to do anything with that ability... the more sensitive we are as beings the more open we are to the world around us - and that's why I feel we're experiencing these "coincidences". Those who refuse to believe won't notice them - but they still occur!

I'm just glad that I'm open to receiving these "messages" :)

((Hugs))
Christine